I was reading Jen's awesome blog, which directed me to another blog that I had not been to before and ....well..... I have visited this new blog a few times now because this girls writing makes me laugh out loud. Its just hilarious and brave, which I enjoy and admire, because I am not the same kind of brave. I just can't seem to swear or dirty joke very well at all.
Yeah I do live in cartoon land, flowers grow everywhere and birds chirp as they fly by carrying dew drops on rainbows. That is what I choose to put out there, it's what I choose to see, how I reflect. If I am going to leave a footprint or a feeling lying around the place, then (for me) it just feels right for it to be glowing.
I actually blush and cover my mouth and apologize if I swear by accident, and yes I feel a little silly about doing that. Swearing and off colour jokes just don't feel right on me so I choose not to say them out loud, it looks pretty ridiculous when I try........I'm like the nerd trying to be cool. Which isn't so cool. Having said that, while I can't deliver certain brands of humour....... I can absolutely appreciate it.
Some of my favorite bloggers for instance seem to be girls with attitude, women who write really well but often swear like truckers and say things that make me gasp a little..... the point of view they offer is often so funny and ironic and I LOVE reading them. I sit and laugh out loud at the computer wishing I had the guts and ability to write like that myself, but I can't, I can't even think that funny. At least I can be grateful there are people in this world to entertain me so, and I would be remiss if I didn't pass the share on that Jen started.
And this is your fair swear warning for all you Mommy types with kids hanging around..... there are dashes colour in the very relateable writing.....and it's awesome funny.
So.....did you read it? She had me wishing again that I could be that cool actually, but then I started thinking about something, I do have music to pull into and I am grateful for that . I am learning to be more comfortable all the time, it really does hit something for me. Esp with the help of this internet world where I can peek into the thoughts of others and be inspired by those who are willing to put themselves out there.
The below video is a rough draft I wrote a year ago last Jan at a turning point which set me on a journey of pushing myself musically and letting crap out creatively. I love looking at this video and seeing this girl, knowing how cheeky she was, how far she has come, how many times she has fallen, where she led herself, what she gained, what she lost, what she saw, what she knew, what she hid, what she revealed, where she was brave, and where she got stuck. I just look back at it all and see all of this and I love that girl, she hit it head on. Sometimes we don't even see ourselves until we can look backwards.
So anyway, I was reading Raeleigh Jane's blog being all inspired to reach even further inward and it got me thinking that's all..........and...that's all I got for you, except perhaps this.......
You know what touches me deeply? When I open an email and see someone has taken the time to share their story and tell me that they felt something because of something that I wrote or sang. That's really a cool feeling, and I appreciate the window into another humans journey for it is an honour. Today someone asked me where they could buy one of my songs and I responded as I usually do, I emailed her the MP3 and said its a gift. Because it is a gift.
With Hearts....Rachael xo